If you follow me on social media, then you know that for the past few weeks, our family has been busy as my son’s senior year of high school has come to an end – prom, awards ceremonies, special class activities, exams and graduation. Allow me to briefly tell you about my son, Daniel.
Five months into my pregnancy, Lance & I found out we were having a son. We were so very excited! I could not wait to meet him! Before he was born, I dreamed about what he’d look like (although my ultrasound pictures showed he favored Lance more than me!), what his personality would be like and what God would do in his life. I loved him before I even knew him – kind of weird, but if you’re a mom, you know what I mean.
When I met my little boy after his birth, I was in love. I couldn’t believe how beautiful he was. I loved holding him and staring at him. We were bonded for life. As he grew through infancy and the toddler years, my sweet Daniel was one happy little boy. He hardly ever cried, his personality was so laid back and calm, his eyes made my heart melt and he had the most adorable chubby cheeks that were perfect for a million kisses. He was an ‘easy’ baby and preschooler.
During his early school years, he loved school and was enthusiastic about learning. Things took a turn during his fourth grade year and for the next 4 years, his enthusiasm turned to academic struggle and many frustrating, tear-filled nights for him (and me). But thankfully, that time didn’t change his personality. His adolescent years were surprisingly pleasant. Even as a high-schooler, he still loved to plop down on my bed to talk. To this day, I enjoy his company – he is kind, gentle and very funny. He always makes me laugh.
Daniel has been fascinated with cars since he was a toddler – he has built a pretty impressive Hot Wheels collection over the years. About a year and a half ago, he got his learner’s permit to drive a real car. Good times driving around with a teenager driver! He always handled the car well and was very comfortable driving, so I knew he’d be fine when it came time to get his driver’s license. Well, earlier this spring, he obtained his driver’s license and let me tell ya…the first time he drove my car alone, I was a wreck! I sat on my bed, weeping, feeling like my heart would not beat again until he texted me when he arrived at his destination. All was well when I received that text and I could resume breathing – until I realized that he had to drive home alone later that evening. Repeat crying and a stopped heart until I heard him pull up outside. It took such an emotional toll on me that I went to bed soon after he arrived home!
As his mom, I have always wanted to protect him and his sister. If they were with me, I knew they were safe. But the moment that my son was operating a motor vehicle outside of my ‘protective arms’, I couldn’t deal with it. God showed me that I was a control freak. As long as I was in the car watching out for idiot drivers, Daniel was safe. How could I protect him if he was driving alone? I really needed to rely on God to keep a hedge of protection around him.
As my son enters a new season of life and I enter a new season of motherhood, I am reminded of a few things:
- Lance & I are finished raising Daniel. This year, the catchphrase around our house has been ‘moving from dependence to independence’. We have tried to be very proactive about that.
- Our role is now to advise and guide as Daniel needs. We have raised him the best we could; now it’s time for him to make his own decisions. It won’t always be easy seeing him find his own way but he has much to learn through wise – and unwise – choices. We are trusting that his relationship with Christ and what we’ve taught him will help him to navigate those unchartered waters.
- God will still hear my mama prayers. Just because my son is now an adult doesn’t mean that my mama prayers will end. My parents still pray daily for my siblings and me. I will still keep my son lifted up in prayer to my Heavenly Father.
Daniel is such a great young man. Not only do I love him…I like him. I’m excited to see him enter this new season of life as a young adult. I’m also excited for this new season of motherhood and all that I’ll learn. Pray for this mama, friends!